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I have now reached one year on testosterone. Over this past year a lot of changes have happened to my body.
I've become slimmer, stronger, hairier (a lot hairier), my face has changed shape, my voice has lowered, my period has stopped
(but not the cramps or other PMS symptoms). I have felt more comfortable in my skin simply because I look good as a
guy, and I'm not questioned when presenting as a guy or shopping in the guys department. Over this year I have felt
extreme happiness, but also a sense of loss. With all of these great changes also comes the loss of the person I was
before. The loss of the community that I inhabited before. And the potential loss of my partner. People
say I need to be who I am, all of my friends have never seen me happier than what I've been this past year, but I feel like
I need to give myself a break and see if I want to contine being an FtM posterboy, or if I want to diverge into the gender
queer world presenting more as the person I was before. I'm not sure what will happen to me this next year, I may stay
off of hormones and be a boi, or I may go back on and be a transman...Whatever happens, you all will be the first to know.
Ryan
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